Life These Days

Life these days is going by in the blink of an eye... and I know why!  There is NEVER a down moment.

Our weekday routine:
5:30 am Ron and Erin wake up
5:30-6:10 Ron gets himself and Kensy ready while I get myself ready
6:10 Erin feeds Kensy while Ron takes care of Javier's morning rituals; Ron packs Kensy's bottles
6:30 Ron helps load Kensy and I into the car for departure
6:40 Everyone is out the door
7:05 Erin drops off Kensy
7:30 - 4 Erin works (this includes 4 trips of pumping in the fantastic CFA lactation room)
3:30 - Ron gets off work and heads to the gym
4:20 - Erin picks up Kensy
5:15 - Ron gets home from the gym and Erin leaves for the gym
6:45 - Dinner time
8:00 - Bathe Kensy and put to bed; iron for the next day; pack for the next day; study for any classes to teach at the gym
10:00 - ZZZzzzzzzz (hopefully; and hopefully sleep until 5:30 the next day, though this hasn't been happening lately)

Next day: Repeat

No wonder everyone says kids grow up in the blink of an eye!  Who has time to blink!

I don't want to complain, because our weekends have been an absolute blast, but we have not been using them for R&R... that's for sure!

As wonderful as it is having a family and being a real adult I think sometimes about certain feelings that I miss that I never appreciated at the time.  I miss waking up on a Saturday morning and lazily planning my day... go for a run, grab lunch, catch up with a friend I haven't seen in some time.  I miss that random Tuesday evening after getting home from a ride or the gym and deciding to fix a bowl of spaghetti and drink an entire bottle of wine curled up on the couch watching So You Think You Can Dance.  I miss saying yes to that friend that asks me to go on a random day trip to Short Pump shopping.  I miss sitting by the neighborhood pool all day long on a Saturday, taking a quick nap and hitting the town until 2am.  The list goes on and on, but what I realize as I type these things is that none of these days moved my life forward, made me a better person, challenged me etc. the way being a mom has in just 3 months.

Being a mama and a baby mama is the best thing that has ever happened to me.  For the rest of my life I will have something more to live for than just myself.  I have opened my heart and my life to a challenge that not all people get to experience, and no one will ever experience in the same way that I will.

Maybe someday a day will get longer or we will win the lottery :)  Until then, don't blink!